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ohhh my goshhh :D. i'm blogging on Bertnam;; ATHOME. wahahah. Bertnam is up and running, wee. get ready world; for bertnams herrreeee . wee .

FRICKS.

oh my shuggledefugglebumstitches!!

urgh, i feel completely RETARDED.

so i got an email reminder from one of the lecturers to make your subject selection by this friday. ANNNNND. i am aware i made my selection, but i didn't know if i did it right and it registered; so better safe than sorry.

i signed back in to check, then the page was like opened for editing again.

now i'm afraid i'll be put wayyyyyyyyy fricking back in line again. blllah. CDSes. ape shit.
i hope not. D: or i'll cry.
( maybe not, just something dramatic )

school makes you feel insignificant. i don't know why. D: only because it's crazy ass competition in polys. blllllah, and how everyone is like, hi-bye.
it makes me feel sad. :(

Whattteveerr.

ivan gave me this link earlier and it's flucking cute lurh!!
*dies-

whatteevvvverrrr.

in case the background music is too distracting and annoying,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=In5uec02E8U

:D

eta: i don't know if the video is like working, cause it's not for me; so just use the link if it doesn't.

Happy.

Today was pretty fun. Happy. And I just finished my Ideation assignment one, wahaha. random drawing with shapes. DOH.

After Richard's interesting ( alittleeven? ) albeit horribly boring lecture, i met nyk and suzanne at the library!! :D traveled all th way from west for me. oh golly geeee. hearts! ya'll are great! then amanda later, and went to watch shrek at century sq. as ideally expected. I fricking loved that show, i like how the incorporated like all the fairy tale characters into it, i'm just amazed by simple shit like this.

i used to look forward to new batches of digimon only just to look frward to how they would be using new things to add into their monsters. heh. o.o dorky.

I know like half the world has alr. watched the show alr, but pardon me; i know i slowpke D: the princesses were major bitchy, which was haha-able. especially sleeping beauty. HAHS. and the high school scene was like totally it. hot. hehhh.

ookay, anyways. movie aside. went to meet zhen (aka. potential xiao hua), sam and jeremy after that. haven't seen jeremy in forevaaaaa. eyeballs day! hahaaa. and had dinner at this hong kong cafe thing thongs they call it back in HK. the ambience is really similar, but its weirdly located at the CC. o.o like whuuut. but the food is godly lurh. the seafood baked rice was wahh urh-urh sial. LOL

and bused back to the miiddle of nowhere on the way home before we split directions to get home. D: dayum. should have these outings again. looking forward to what tomoro has installed. :D weeee.

so many things t charge today. bertnam's almost dying, my ipod died flat on the bus on the way to sch today. thankfully my hp's still good enough for tomoro.. i hope. so many assignments too. 2 fricking mindmaps and reflection and sketching for some new character we're supposed to come up with. blllah. i refuse to touch them. richard better bloody not collect shit tomoro or i'll flip.

the end. (:

i do realise i haven't blogged in forever, and this post isn't exactly giving back what i owe; but whatever. i'll be forgiven right?! hahaha.

OMG.

anyone like wanna watch fantastic four tomoro? ;D

that was my sub nick. and alex replied.

alex. says:
me
'BENN says:
omg okay
'BENN says:
we go pak toh
alex. says:
but i dun wan go with u

How depressing is that? D:

Dastardly.

I'm proud of myself. The optic shop woman said i was the fastest of everyone learning how to put on and take off contacts for a noob today. happpppy. :D

okay, it's a bit retarded to be gleeful over that but w.h.a.t.e.v.r. hahaha.

had a heavy discussion with mama after going to the docs. you really realise how ugly people have become over the years. not facially challenged lurh. as in ugly personality. people now lack the heart and generosity. i was saying how big shot specialists cock the fricking prices up sooooooooo high when it's all about how much they want to earn.

okay so your parents bring you to the uni, you need equipment for your surgery, anaesthetic, whatever. these are long term investments, ya? It's not like one per patient; especially the equipment. considering you divide it to like 400 patients (comon, one lifetime, surely more patients than that right, especially if you're big shot.)

it'll probably go down to like few hundreds per patient (excluding those that just consult and don't op, they already overcharge the consult fees.) and say for all your hard work you want to earn like a few hundred for everything; okay fine you cock it up by that much. that should be like the basic you know. but doctors now fricking jack the prices up like whatever whatevers. they extra you know, is how much they CHOOSE to earn from you. and i'm like; what's the world coming to.

maybe i haven't reached that level of superiority; and i wouldn't know whats it like to be rich even by that much; but regardless; GREED shouldn't set down to THAT extent. sure you want to earn - jack up for your hard work and efforts can already be like two folds; thats like sufficient right? now everything is like x10, x20. i really don't get the point of doing business like this, it shines you in different light and shows how humble you really are. which IS very disgusting.

whatever lurh. i don't think i make sense. mama says she passed her square genes on to me; which i think has really happened; and i feel sad. D: naive and cheated easy. so simple thinking huh? what happened to magnaminous people like lim bo seng who build clinics and subsidises these and that; and doctors who actually heal because of their occupation. everything is all about money now; and the society is just wrong.

so you're gonna charge like few ten thousands from an old uncle who just needs an operation to make him feel better or something? even though he don't have that money. that's just inane.

[i'm just stating suggestion, i do know old uncles wouldn't even think of going specialists cause they ain't got that money. say it's some baddddd badd thing only this specialist can do, ya? imagine.]

ugly; ugly; UGLY people. sighhh.
after saying all those, i also can't confirm if i'm one of them which i'm talking bout. heh. hypocrissy?

PS. not talking about national hospitals and everything, cause the government stoically sponsors and takes some of the fee's burden themselves. i'm refering to those private outlets at raffles hospital or something.

Pics.

kiachun taking me taking him. hahaha

neoprint machine

superhee-lows.

spastics.

'BENN ;D
(played with editing for this one, befre coming with this kiddie layout. heh)

Hey big spender.

"Hey big spender

spend a little time with me."

Good gosh. I was out alone for the whole day and my total expenditure was like flucking high of $90.40

somebody chain me up please.

fricking kenneth asked me go out; then wanted to swim afterwards. bahhhh.

let me do a breakdown of my costs and doings. tadahhh:

$49.90- haircut and highlites. did it fluorescent peachy but apparently; isn't as fluorecent as i expected. it probably will be under the sunlight, i think (i hope.) but i like the cut and how the colour subtlely factors in. (i'm probably just consoling myself. heh. OR NOT?!)

$35.00- contact lenses. YAYYYYY :D enough said. though i think the first one + consultation and teaching and everything is a little costly. i think the teaching is mandatory as in the guy didn't even ask me if i wanted it. he just sorta added it all in. at leasssst i'm getting it. wooo.

$3.00- ban mian. i waited damn long for the haircut lurh; and did my eye check and everything; so had dinner out. spicy. was tearing a bitta. D:

$2.00- muah chee. only the bestest. the one at hougang is dammmn fricking good lurh. i always buy it when i cut my hair last time. all time love. choooo-wee.

$0.50- macdonald ice cream. top off the dinner lurh. hahaha. i feel sinful; like gluttonically sinful. (is there even such a word?)

somebody chain me up pliiiiis. i have to go back to TP tomorrow until like eleven only. what's to go on afterwards, HMM?

Fan Girl.

I feel like a little fan girl for changing my blog song; and I'm guilty of which; but I can't help it!! I really like this one. Hurhur. Goooo Benjamin. :D

Yesterday was a hoot. Finally met up with people who are l.o.v.e. once again. Had the SA thing-thong earlier; was pretty fun. met new people; hahaha. andrea's like totally good at being bimbo. LOL. and the seniors were nice to let us off like an hour early. hengsai our group didn't have to do presentation. whoooosh. i'd like fricking slit my throat; i'm such a noob.

met amanda and jacqie at dhoby and suzanne afterwards. neoprints at heeren with nyk and zhen afterwards turned out to be realllly tiny. DAYUM. and dinner at ichiban boshi afterwards. so many 'no's for dinner. no chinese, no western, no japanese, no korean, no thai blah blah. heck; still settled with something. hahaha. damn funnnnnneh.

trained back to compass to slack at starbucks. some unexpected thingthongs happened which errr. were unexpected. Lol. Takecare kay. you know who you are.

anddddddddddd er. accomplishment.
i walked home from sengkang second time alr. :D

i tried to take a shortcut through hougang green; and being too influenced by BBUK; along the way, i was totally being a retard by talking to myself in a faux-british accent. "fockeng hell. i'm sooo lawst."

i get retarded at times.

at least i made it home. :D

OH. and errr.

HAPPY DUAN WU JIE. (whenever that is.) ^^"

Gosh.

Oh bum bum.

I feel like blogging; my thumb is being a horrendous sore. It hurts like fluck.

I shall type in short ' paras since my thumb is annoying me.

' met amanda and went to tanjong katong .

' to meet yq to get her violin thing thong

' crazy assasin man holding knife .

' damn DAMN funny lurh i tell you.

' ate miso crunch at KFC ; i like it :D

' went parkway to play arcade

' wanted to eat ponggol nasi lemak for dinnner but bahhh forgoed.

' bused back to s'goon; ate at garden market .

' flucking waited for miserable $2 CHAHKUAYTEOW.

' at least its good lah. but portion is so cry-worthy .

' went back kensington to play bball

' uncle closed in a bit so we walked to man's place

' fricking court no hoop.

HAHAHA.

' concludes my entry today; we all went home .

HURHUR.

i need to get to bed soon; i have to go back TP tmr. at 11am. GAHH. i haven't woke up so early in forever.

kizses.

editedtoadd; once i get bertnam linked up to the internet; i tell you.

i can let leicester rest. wahaha. poor thing has fricking slogged for me for so damn long.

bout time i let him rest. :D

Wooohlayhey.

I love you, Bertnam! :D

Benn loves you long time. hahaha.
I'm bored at home. It seems everyone has their plans for a Saturday. WHY NOT MEEEE.

Next week is going to be BUSSSSY.

'Impromptu SA Camp on the same day as the gathering (which I just found out today, blahhhhh)
'VSC Subject Selection Briefing
'Doctor's Appointment.

AND SCHOOL STARTS ON THE 25TH.
fast urh? i smell my pay check coming to me alr. wahaha.

P.S. [He Ping De Dai Jia] on Channel8 is an extremely saddening show. It makes you sad; and makes me feel like vomitting after I just drank milk. Bleuch.

too much info. sorry.

zz

YAY. :D

Work's over for me. Couldn't help but do a little jig when I gave MeiJing my timesheet to mail back. Estatic. Hahaha. I also don't knw why eh; hm. Sense of accomplishment perhaps?

Had Yong Tau Fu at cine for like 3rd day in a row. fricking nice urh. hahaha. still remember talking to Jielin bout ghosts whilst eating that on Friday. Dried human smells like Bakkwa. Serious. Lol, says the pharmaceutical student. Can barely imagine. Blahhhh. hahaha.

It's damn good; and it was raining lurh; so I walked SPECIALLY to get it; even when I could have food at the canteen downstairs. AND i bussed down all the way to borders (but the bus doesn't exactly go there; so I had to do a lil detour and work further in the rain) JUST TO GET MY STRAWBERRY CHEESE QUAKE FROM DQ. omh. seriously. i think it's DAMN good.

there's like 1cm by 1cm cheese blocks in it. YEAH. i think i'm fricking preggers. specially travel in the rain just to get something i want. i'm just like that; hahaha. if i really want to get that something; i will go through allll means to hopefully get it. a bit retarded; but i like being me. walking across to lido; people give me that 'it's fucking drizzling and you're eating ice-cream.' look. hahahaha. damn funny.

happened again. i walked from front gate on the way back all the way to gardens to buy tapioca chips. BLAAAH. i'm snacking again. shit.

on a side note; i flashed an annoying dog the finger; for barking at me. :D
i love doing that.

Thingthong

Speaking to Nykelaz; i've realised I haven't camwhored in FOREVER. that's made me rather sad. blahhh.

Some other things also make me kinda sad. But I shouldn't dwell on it; it's rather premature and not meant to be in the first place. Pfft.

I'm meeting Charlene on Wednesdayyyyy. Yippeee. or not? Hm. HAHAHA. BUT. then again; tomoro is my last day at work. something to rejoice about.

Amanda; please come back from genting soon. YuanQi needs you. She's a lesbian in disguise; and i'm a gay in disguise. Lol. Later you come back; she's in jail. :X nevermind; inside thing.

Kent's nice lurhhhhhh; and Shirley and Canny and and and everyone at Wyeth. I'll miss you allllll. :D

* Jielin PMed me on friendster. SO SWEET RIGHT? LOL ^^"

I feel like posting a picture for fun. So something random off my PC:

DA JIE. I saw you on TV on CSS rooting for Elaine! :D
BENZ. I miss your crap and your lipsynching. hahaha.
KATH. When are we planning the outting thing thong? D:

Random.

Bom Chica Wauh Wauh!

hahah. just a splash of randomness.
i like saying that these few days; the advert on youtube's made me go insane.

blaaah

blogging at office. shhhh. 2nd last day at work alr. :D

Ps. hello claudia!! ;D

Ehh.

Hahaha. Yesterday was rather fun.

Was stuck at home like majority of the time, until Zhen came to speak to me on MSN. Was about 3:10; and we were both bored; so we both jioed the other to go out asap. hahaha. and we steadied on going to AMK's K-box at 4:00. Rushed down siaurh, hahs. Fun.

LOL. Our skills at singing have definitely deteoriated. Even Zhen thinks so! (maybe we're just delusional hahaha) but we recorded us singing; and then replayed whilst cringing. HAH. can you fricking imagine. Wanted t go town after that , but Zhen lazy.

So we went to hub to walk and decide what to eat; I wanted to try Botak Jones! which coincidentally was near Zhen's ex-place - so we bussed down and talked shit while waiting about 30 fucking minutes for our food. Wasn't too bad. :D

I think Poly's turning us into bitchy convent girls; somehow. blllah.


who wants to go on a holiday in september? :D

Campus Thoughts.

I promised Amanda to give credits for Campus Superstar when I do see someone I like; and surprisingly; Joanna wasn't as scary on the show! Lol! Nyk called her a satay; but I like her voice. Low, yet appealing. It's just her photo that left a bad impression I think.

Agnes and Keely were okay I suppose; all pretty alright. Though I didn't see how Zhengning was so good. Sorry. I feel bad for JiaQi; I really did like her. It's a pity cause neighbourhood schools usually get trashed by big convent schools and other big named self-providing ones; just cause the people there are generally closer? and more willing to vote? that or; the teachers and principal just give it their all themselves. Neighbourhood schools just don't get as much credit as they deserve; pity.

Marcus sang wokeyi!! :D and he hit the after notes which I can't (is it very hard to?), so it was rather relieving. the rest were okay; Junjie was mumbling a whole lot into the mic; so no comment. Fukuan was really hilarious with his robotic handmovements. He needs to loosen up and wrk on his stage presence? I don't know; but his voice is damn good though. Potential. :D
Xubin sounded pretty bad, but he was a looker though; and last but not least; Shawn was clearly the best of the night.

Disclaimer: I may not be any abled musician to comment; but yeah. Just personal thoughts. Lol.

The end.

Test

Create your own Friend Test here

You say you know me? It's pretty easy anyways. Score well!
the previous test had a slight error; but edited. :D

urgh.

i'm in a slightly pissy mood cause i can't reach who i want to reach and well basically; that person isn't reaching me back either. it's fricking irritating. so, i choose to vent my pent anger on the blogs; annnd all you readers. bare with me, my loves.

isn't it idiotic;
when you actually take the initiative to console someone, when they feel down or whatever? as seen in their msn nicks or blogs; and they don't FRICKING THANK YOU for it. i mean; it's from the goodness of your heart, and you shouldn't expect a single return, but a form of reciprocation goes a long way. what's worse is when the totally emo person doesn't even FUCKING reply your msg.

it's like.
"eh, don't sad lurh, you're above that okay, take care. one day you'll look at this and realise it's so silly and blah blah blah whatever nice things benn can think of."

AND THE PERSON DOESN'T FUCKING REPLY.
it's so annoying. it's like talking to a wall, and being kind to it. can you bloody imagine?

"hi wall. are you okay? i love you. :D"
RETARDED. YES.

granted their in a mood as bad as it is, but for cheering up their day, don't you at least deserve a little recognition or 'consolation'? it really doesn't pay to be nice, does it? i really should learn to toughen up and only blossom to those who actually bloody care for me. i really appreciate all your presence guys especially - amanda, yq, zhen, suzanne, nyk. you guys rule. hugs. (:

sometimes, i really say things i don't mean to say; and i type things i really don't mean. i know everything matters, and once you said it; nothing can revert time. i sincerely hope if i've hurt you guys in any ways. please forgive me, i apologise. all of you matter the world to me, and i want to keep in touch with you all until the day i die (hahah, don't reject me lurh. pls.) i'm still benn, but do tell me if i'm doing something wrong. i'll correct myself. you guys matter the world to me; everyone i know AND CARE ABOUT. (cause apparently, this isn't reciprocated with everybody as assumed; gosh. how naive huh?)

back to being bitter again.

"hao ren you hao bao."
yeah, right. karma. good people all get cancer and die early.
(you say probably cause they can go heaven and enjoy and whatever; no comments.)

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case 2!!

i saw this
'wide eyed, contacted,
'blonde and rebonded haired,
'long black fake pre-attached toenail wearing,
'super duper short miniskirted,
'assumingly fake-falsetto sounding

girl that day, cuddling with her boyfriend on the mrt. no, they wern't snogging, but whatever; i'm not talking about etiquette in public anyways. so basically; she, if seen; would usually be classified under the typical proclaimed 'twit' category. but boy oh boy, do i hate stereotypism. so lets forgo the twit factor and how they type, and progress more into people like her; without having to group and name names.

(seeing some people who dress like that can be very intelligent and not necessarily type in a pre-determined manor, take pictures with pre-positioned styles or sound typically high.)

ANYWAYS. the main problem i had with her, was her [assumingly fake-falsetto sounding] VOICE. gosh. granted it itself can be sometimes used as a powerful tool for the female specimen to grab the male species' attention, it can sometimes be seen as overly 'teh' and highly annoying.

okay okay. for those who actually SOUND that way, i guess you can't be blamed; but there will be a definite solid group of people, who actually speak in a horribly bad high voice; that in all their pretence, think it sounds very real and believable. sad to say, it doesn't. however they do it, i applaud them; cause it's no easy feat. probaby clench their oesophagus and try to croak out a high pitched sound or two?

bearing in mind, if taken in appropriate amounts, it would be tolerable. but the thing is, the fact that their doing it on their own accord; and worse; FAKELY. perhaps, they'r on the road to improvisation; if a voice like that can be considered as 'improving' your appearance and outcome. but i guess they have to be applauded for painstakingly going through what they do, in order to make it a habit to speak like that. trust me. trying to speak like a girl is already making me gasp for air and leaving me with a horrible sorethroat, let alone speak in a fake high pitch.

perhaps, we really have to look at them in a different light? or not.

okay what i'm saying is, just be yourself. if you speak like that; speak like that. don't specially cock your voice to a certain pitch just to follow a specific trend or seek specific attention. NOT NECESSARY. perhaps voice does matter, or not; whilst doing sex; but no- noone's gonna ditch you if you sound horrible enough. afterall, it's the inside (or outter appearance even) that matters most right? lol.

whatever.
i don't really know if this section of the post even makes sense.
i don't really know if i got my pt across... but can't be bothered anyways. zz

poem!

'i await the signs of your presence,

'but no, you're barely there.

'i grin whenever the small icon at the corner lights
'but no, you didn't log on MSN.

'butterflies gather everytime my phone vibrates
'but no, you didn't call me.
'waiting for you so,

'but no pleasant memories await my thoughts and wants.

'oh.

'my heart skips a beat with every ring of the dialtone,

'hoping you pick up the phone.

'but to no avail, no reply, not once or twice.

'my heart sinks low, into an endless pit.

'i await your reappearance another day,

'for you're like a flutter, an angel, somewhat.

'perhaps one day.

'or maybe;

'you're just playing me silly.

'toying; confusing.

'i don't know; i have high hopes.

'dashed?

'i wish not.

workplce.

just showing what i'm supposed to do. bahhh.

messy messy workdesk. hurhur.

that's abt 400 odd papers there. hah. papercuts D:

pneumococcal tissues. surely seen the ad at mrt?

phamplets. my hard work siaurh. whole box full :D

had to pack goodiebags that day. tissue and wetwipes mountain! :D

boredom does this. the last and best photo of the lot. HAHAHA. benn loves his toilet breaks.

Happy.

Lol. Today's work was pretty hectic. Meijing's on off; and I'm the only fricking one folding phamplets. They need like 1k for tomorrow's KKH something, and 1.7k for friday's dong dong. It's like all of a sudden, the thing thongs i've been folding everyday get confiscated; and I have to start from scratch. It's pretty sad really. Stayed over with Mi Chelle to finish folding the photocopied stuff. Finally spoke to the new temp, Jie Ling. :D she's nice.

Oh my god. Did I tell you all. I met Anthony that day, and Uncle Johnny from exT3. He's still as funny as ever lurhhh.
"don't work there.. yah don't work there.. tell all your friends this industry not good.. yah don't work there.. "

HAHAHA. golden. and anthony and 4e1, BENN LUFS U. D:

today, also very damn happy. i met 2 des schlers at their workplace!! met mommy aftr work to go isetan buy something (i bought a cookie jar to hold my coooookies. :D) and i met xuefen at Dome! hahaha. she's complaining bout her hair lurhhhh. i forgot her old look alr. i promise i'll eat there next time!! cause i had to rush off to novena to get something; shop closed in few minutes time.

then at novena, got my stuff and i met wyncy at fishnco!! hahaha. whao. damn small world; everyone working today. jacen wasn't working today, DAYUM. lol. finally settled t eat at FnC. food wasn't as good; was a little cold; but wyncy gave us a 10% staff discount!! :D (at least her manager did). she's damn nice lurh. awesome classmate. ^^"

kiaed from velocity to united square. everything close alr. sialurh. the schls there damn power. i feel intimidated walking past these schls with billboards abt how their students have scored A**s.

blaaaady.
so clever for whut. D: still die in the end. (yes, i'm j-lous bahhh.)

WAHLAUWAHLAUWAHLAUUU.fricksfricksfricksfricks.why does the phone have to die at the wrongest time!! blardy. i call back and it's busy. D: CCCCB.

kgh

Lol.

The new CSS2 website is up!

http://u.mediacorptv.com/css2

yay. there's a benjamin.

he's going to win.

just because his name is so hottt.

teri's impressive; i saw her youtube video,

and she doesn't speak chinese very well.

kudos.

xubin's a looker; and joanna scares me.
i think my new DP says it all huh?

okay, sorry. don't say i'm mean just cause i'm timid okay. i was relli intimdated by her big flowy witchlike hair; and xiao cha bor grin. she may sing well, i don't know. i may like her, time will tell.

i was looking through some old photos; memories. sigh.
i'm tempted to show everyone how cute i was as a toddler. :D
serious okay; no BHBing; i think like 80% of toddlers are cute lurh, that's almost majority.

that said; got hideous ones lurh (not including me. HAHAHA)
but if i carry on, i will be subconciously reserving my spot in hell; for an eternity of days and neverending nights. hot. (no pun intended)

and then; i saw my primary school photos. i almost choked and died. i swore my heart almost attacked my lungs; and made me spit out alveo whatever; (i forget, sorry biology) and at the same time, blood. A LOT of blood..

i really need a paper shredder machine, and quick.

ghmh

been stuck at home; siiigh. so bored. D:
at a cold war with mom; i can't stand her fricking bad habits.
WAHLAO. urghs
forget it; don't wanna talk about it.
today has been rather saddening.

number one;
it's been emo.

number two;
i probably gained weight.

I FREAKING HATE BEING LONELY!! %$^%$^%$ D: D: D:
I FREAKING HATE BEING LONELY!! %$^%$^%$ D: D: D:
I FREAKING HATE BEING LONELY!! %$^%$^%$ D: D: D:
I FREAKING HATE BEING LONELY!! %$^%$^%$ D: D: D:
I FREAKING HATE BEING LONELY!! %$^%$^%$ D: D: D:

i crave company; i need people's presence. urgh; wahlao.
loneliness makes me feel really empty insides.
it's on days like this; that makes me want to steal babies.
i want an older brother;
i want a younger sister;
i should just find myself another legal guardian.
so many wants;
yet the stars are so high;
too high to reach for- impossible.

BOREDOM, i can take. LONELINESS; no.
two VERY seperate things you know.

grandmother lazy to cook dinner;
and me in my delirious lonely and bored mode went to gardens to walk alone.
bought chocolate and blueberry pancake at jollybean
and cheese tapioca chips at NTUC.

(btw; tapioca chips is so much better than potato chips. it's more flavourful and hard.)

that's my dinner to be.
and auntie just let me have half her brownie with ice cream.

i tink i'm getting hypertension; diabetes; and some coronary weird things all at once.
i'm dying! or not..?
but at least i know i'm gaining weight. hah.
i snack alot when there's nothing to do, fCk.

i wonder if the netherworld is lonesome. hmm.