ghmh

been stuck at home; siiigh. so bored. D:
at a cold war with mom; i can't stand her fricking bad habits.
WAHLAO. urghs
forget it; don't wanna talk about it.
today has been rather saddening.

number one;
it's been emo.

number two;
i probably gained weight.

I FREAKING HATE BEING LONELY!! %$^%$^%$ D: D: D:
I FREAKING HATE BEING LONELY!! %$^%$^%$ D: D: D:
I FREAKING HATE BEING LONELY!! %$^%$^%$ D: D: D:
I FREAKING HATE BEING LONELY!! %$^%$^%$ D: D: D:
I FREAKING HATE BEING LONELY!! %$^%$^%$ D: D: D:

i crave company; i need people's presence. urgh; wahlao.
loneliness makes me feel really empty insides.
it's on days like this; that makes me want to steal babies.
i want an older brother;
i want a younger sister;
i should just find myself another legal guardian.
so many wants;
yet the stars are so high;
too high to reach for- impossible.

BOREDOM, i can take. LONELINESS; no.
two VERY seperate things you know.

grandmother lazy to cook dinner;
and me in my delirious lonely and bored mode went to gardens to walk alone.
bought chocolate and blueberry pancake at jollybean
and cheese tapioca chips at NTUC.

(btw; tapioca chips is so much better than potato chips. it's more flavourful and hard.)

that's my dinner to be.
and auntie just let me have half her brownie with ice cream.

i tink i'm getting hypertension; diabetes; and some coronary weird things all at once.
i'm dying! or not..?
but at least i know i'm gaining weight. hah.
i snack alot when there's nothing to do, fCk.

i wonder if the netherworld is lonesome. hmm.