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I've been probably too emotionally drained these past few days that it's been affecting my physical self. Perhaps that my own excuse for being lethargic and lazy, but seriously, it's been quite the ride. Things have happened, and I've taken them in my stride. Worked about some, and not too much on others. At least things have been flattened out, not exactly too crisp; but some crinkles on the edges wouldn't hurt. My personal excuse of a recharge after several days of good rest has not seemed to work, sadly.
Ever since I've been exposed to certain relationships, I've been feeling not like myself these few days. blah. I have no idea why. Perhaps that's why people have a higher tendacy of becoming pent and emo after being so close to this 4 letter l word. boo. it's not becoming of me, and it's another side of myself I've yet to explore (first time okay. hahaha), and hopefully I'll surface the right side up. It just feels I'm missing the right puzzle piece at this point of time. I just wish someone could come up and draw the right fit with a felt tip marker, and slot it in. I wish. Lol.
Currently feeling kinda empty at the moment, no idea why. Again, the side of me that just wants to find an excuse for myself just wants me to say I'm too physically exhausted from being out so many days. But I have my personal doubts, could it plausibly be something else? Something which I've yet to figure out.
Where are you? :(
I've apologised one too many times, and that may seem surfacial (? wtf? you get my drift) but I really do mean it. I hope you understand that it comes from the bottom of my heart that I don't mean to see you broken but I'm sure with time, cracks heal. I'm really really glad we're fine and still the best as ever, but I really am not doing things on purpose against you. It's just I'm not feeling just like myself recently, which I'm sure again, time can restore. (I hope.) Let's not get overly sensitive, I'm not menopausal, maybe a little; but stop picking on it! hahahahar.
I'll post pictures soon. :D (first happy smiley of the post. yay.)
Ever since I've been exposed to certain relationships, I've been feeling not like myself these few days. blah. I have no idea why. Perhaps that's why people have a higher tendacy of becoming pent and emo after being so close to this 4 letter l word. boo. it's not becoming of me, and it's another side of myself I've yet to explore (first time okay. hahaha), and hopefully I'll surface the right side up. It just feels I'm missing the right puzzle piece at this point of time. I just wish someone could come up and draw the right fit with a felt tip marker, and slot it in. I wish. Lol.
Currently feeling kinda empty at the moment, no idea why. Again, the side of me that just wants to find an excuse for myself just wants me to say I'm too physically exhausted from being out so many days. But I have my personal doubts, could it plausibly be something else? Something which I've yet to figure out.
Where are you? :(
I've apologised one too many times, and that may seem surfacial (? wtf? you get my drift) but I really do mean it. I hope you understand that it comes from the bottom of my heart that I don't mean to see you broken but I'm sure with time, cracks heal. I'm really really glad we're fine and still the best as ever, but I really am not doing things on purpose against you. It's just I'm not feeling just like myself recently, which I'm sure again, time can restore. (I hope.) Let's not get overly sensitive, I'm not menopausal, maybe a little; but stop picking on it! hahahahar.
I'll post pictures soon. :D (first happy smiley of the post. yay.)
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